after weeks of zeroing in on tumblr, finally, i have a new post. well, more like a rant actually. husband comes home tagging along with him a very annoying rumor. well to start of, a rumor is something we have heard about, but unsure of how true/false it is, and its credibility since we dont know of its source. that is if you were one of those people hearing about the rumors (i’d like to call them outsiders). but if you are one being talked about, that is, the subject of the rumor, then that makes you a celebrity. (kidding, i’d like to call them the victim) In my case, I am the victim of a VERY NASTY rumor. I don’t even want to talk about what the rumor is about. I just want to say to the person (the perpetuator) that started the rumor (and I have a good idea who it is) that i really do feel sorry for you. A person who almost has everything in life, yet fails to appreciate what life is all about. A person who almost has everything within his/her grasp, yet chooses to level down, way way down. I’ll pray that you be blessed with something beyond what you already have. I pray that you be blessed with a clear heart and mind,the wisdom to discern the right from wrong. To know your boundaries. Because honestly, it quite scares me that someone can spend time with you with a straight face, and at the same time have rotten thoughts about you. Don’t let hate consume you whole. It will eat you up alive.
they say it takes a leap of faith to get over betrayal and hatred. but frankly, that leap of faith remains nonexistent to me right now. not feelin it at all. i dont think you deserve it either. im swimming through all your lies and backstabbing honey, i dont think i ever wanna see your face again.
1. to stay home, almost grounded, because your kids need you, and sometimes when you can actually go out, you still cannot because someone will certainly say something negative about that, while the other person is out getting drunk up until who knows when? (as of this moment that is ongoing btw), but doesn’t really get reprimanded for that as much as he deserves.
2. to have given up one thing you love doing the most (because of blah blah blah reasons) where people are not just colleagues, but family. where work is not something you are compelled to do, but something you love to do.
Give me a reason, a very justifiable reason, as to why I should not feel this way.
I’m not a person who complies to restrictions, but since it is suddenly the rule, I will try really hard. As an adult, I don’t really believe in simple YES or NOs. I believe that sometimes we can actually compromise, or make way for difficult things to happen. There are people who view things as just BLACK and WHITE. If you’re right, you’re good, if you’re wrong, you’re bad, regardless of your reasons. In a Black and White world, you cannot justify, life becomes restricted. Not only is that boring, it doesn’t allow room for a person to grow.